Please can we turn back the clock? I don't just mean for daylight savings time, but for those simpler times. November was a hard month for me, so I'd like to wave my magic wand and turn back the clock to say 1999 when my husband was feeling better and though I was beginning to feel the curses of multiple things, life was good.
November kept me busy, between writing group, write-ins and writing, I would have been busy. To top that all off my husband had 2 hospitalizations and now has to have his blood tested once or twice a week. Now, he will need to top those off with rounds of chemotherapy lasting 7 days once a month.
Some good news, in spite of everything, I was able to write 50,000 words and Essie is clamoring for me to finish her story. It certainly is taking some surprising twists. I believe the story really begins about half way through what I have written.
Since I cannot wave a wand to turn back time, I will do what I always do... Take each day as it comes. I will try to be graceful about the changes to my life and my husbands life, though I am sure I won't be successful all the time. I will learn as much about Mylodysplastic Syndrome or MDS as I can, so I can help Ken make informed choices.
In the meantime, the Serenity Prayer seems to center me.
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
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